overwhelming

there are too many things
going around in my head nowadays.
i'm sorry if i don't act like the old me.
it's weird when you think about something,
and then it can change your personality in a blink of an eye.

and it's even weirder
when you want to avoid
the thing that you love (loved?) most.

i'm confused
juz give me a minute to get my sane back.
and i'll see what i can do.
it's very overwhelming
the feeling that i feel now.
i don't even know wat i'm feeling.

too many feelings at the same time.
anger. disappointement. depressed. sad. annoyed. bitter. failure.
i can't tell which is more overwhelming.

i don't know...
i'm being very weird lately.
and i noticed that i didn't hug everyone in the morning
like i always do
and then, this ship is sailing farther away than the others.
wait- what the heck am i saying

i only wanted to say a few words and go away
but i guess i got carried away.
i wonder if i'll feel better tomorrow?
this thing has been going on for... what? 2 weeks?

i need to get a hold of myself.